Tolerating The Player

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I was going to talk to Isabella today in school and apologize for the things I’ve done to her. I wasn’t feeling okay with myself seeing her everyday but she wasn’t with me. Perhaps I could keep her around before I figure out what feeling I have for her. Her being distant from me is driving me total nuts.

Devin had made excuses for not coming to school today and I didn’t mind as long as he didn’t eat my favourite cereal with his man butt on my couch. If not for anything I was damn sure he wanted to stay behind so he could have time with his girlfriend. I overheard them talking about having an e-date since he wasn’t around at the moment and I cringed so hard. Relationships can be gross sometimes because what the hell was an e-date?

He wouldn’t have told me about their little e-date because he knows for sure that I would make fun of him till we both grow old and die. Not like I still won’t make fun of him anyway.

After preparing for school and drinking the hot coco Devin made for me, I got into his car and made my way to school. Just to piss him off I took his car without him knowing.

I got to the school compound as early as possible hoping to see Maya’s car park really soon and maybe I’d talk to my Bella before we enter the school. Did I just refer to her as “my Bella” this girl is totally driving me nuts already.

I waited for some time and Maya finally parked her car but there was no sign of Bella In the car. Curiosity filled my head and I started to worry, why wasn’t she in the car with Maya, they are bestfriends and they always come to school together.

I thought of asking Maya why Bella wasn’t with her but I couldn’t because we have always been on bad terms. She thinks I’m an asshole and so she hates me not like I’m not actually an asshole.

Bella was still in her car but the windows were still down. I wondered why she didn’t want to leave yet. I started to overthink immediately I saw the sad expression on her face. What if something bad happened to my Bella?

The windows were soon closed and she came down from her car, she made her way to the building but stopped and turned to look at me. Perhaps she noticed I’ve been staring.

I didn’t want to be a pussy so I still kept my eyes on her and she hissed with anger in her face before she walked away.

I let out a heavy sigh as soon as she left, perhaps I could have just asked where my Bella was. I don’t think I’ll be myself throughout classes today especially without seeing Bella.

After a while of waiting for hope I decided to enter the school building, I could remember the subject she had today because she mistakenly left her time table in my car and I took it along with me today.

I went to her first class and the teacher noticed but didn’t say anything about it, she wasn’t in the class either and never came until the period ended.

On my way to her second class I spotted Maya and a part of me was pushing me to ask her about my Bella but the other part of me didn’t want to let my feelings get in the way of my toughness.

I contemplated on asking her before she suddenly left where she was. “Dammit!” I cussed as I slapped my forehead really hard. I really wanted to tell her about how I feel about her.

I went to her second class and the same thing repeated itself, she wasn’t in the class either, Bella isn’t much of a late comer but today feels off and strange. I didn’t give up on the quest yet and I made my way to her third class after the second class was over.

The same thing happened here and the class was almost through. I wanted to give up but still wanted to search for her. I was getting impatient and pissed off but I’ll literally do anything to have her with me till I sort my feelings out.

I suddenly heard a loud giggle coming from the hallway, my face lit up at the familiar laughter and the enthusiasm in my eyes was something I never thought would ever appear.

The door opened and she walked into the door with a broad smile on her face, my eyes drifted to the rest of her body and she looked different today, beautiful was an understatement of how she looked and I suddenly felt a slight ting beneath me, I flushed a little but everything disappeared when Xavier walked in with her holding her hands and they were both smiling.

Every feeling of affection in me suddenly turned to anger, his hands holding hers made me want to rip them apart. I could feel my heart beating fast and every muscle in me wanted to punch the tattoo off his face before I would feel okay.

But then there was nothing I could do, she seemed really happy with him. Fuck it I hope I wasn’t too late to gain her trust and love back. Seeing her happy with someone else really broke me and my anger turned to sadness. I was glad no one was paying attention to me because my mood right now didn’t sit well with the one I’ve been portraying.

The class ended not quite long after they walked in and I watched as she flashed him a smile before walking up to him. I left the class anyway and went to the basketball court to get my head together. If Devin was here then he would surely know what to do.

“Maybe I’ll talk to her during lunch, I’ll sit at their table and apologize” I said to myself and patiently waited for the lunch bell to ring.

I stood up immediately when it rang and made my way to the cafeteria. I was the first one there and I was sure the lunch lady would worry about my mental health.

I stared at their table contemplating on sitting on it before the cafeteria suddenly started to fill up and Maya walked in. As soon as I sighted her I walked to my own table but my body wasn’t at rest.

Bella soon came to join her and it seemed like they were talking about something funny as Bella’s laughter filled the air. I couldn’t help but chuckle. This should be the right time to go.

As I was about to stand up Xavier approached their table with a box of pizza and sat down with them. They all laughed together but I could clearly see the look on Xavier’s face. He wanted her and was probably lusting over her.

My heart fell at the sight of them as Aurora came towards me, I didn’t pay any attention to her even though she sat on my lap. My eyes were still fixed on Bella and the way Xavier looked at her. She turned her head to look at me but noticed Aurora on me and turned her head back to Xavier. My body and blood boiled and I couldn’t take it any longer. I’m not wasting any more time and I’ll tell her about what I feel about her immediately after we close from school.

“But then what do you feel for her?” My inner mind asked but I shoved it off immediately. It was finally time for the school to close. I wasn’t myself throughout school and I knew I wouldn’t be okay with myself if I didn’t talk to her.

I saw her coming out of her class and made my way for her, the instant she saw me coming closer she turned away and increased her pace as she ran. Why the fuck is she running?

I followed after her as I walked really fast to catch up to her but unfortunately again she bumped into Xavier the instant she got outside the building. He quickly held her from falling down but his hands were never leaving her waist. I watched In anger as the punk hands became more firm on her waist but I lost my senses the instant she leaned to kiss him. Are they dating?

My head wasn’t straight and I felt a tight painful knot in my chest. I hope I wasn’t too late. He held her hands with a smug smile on his face as he led her to his motherfucking car. I became numb and unaware of my environment, I didn’t even notice Aurora standing beside me until she yelled and yanked my hand. I pulled away from her touch as I angrily entered the car and zoomed off.

I had no idea where I was going to but all that was in my head and all that mattered was inflicting pain on myself. I made it to the gym but it was closed for some reason today.

“Shit!” I cussed as I angrily got back into the car driving at full speed. I wasn’t concentrating and at this point didn’t care if anything bad would happen to me. Just as I was lost in my thought I didn’t notice a truck fast approaching and when I noticed it was almost too late but I managed to swerve away but end up bumping into a tree, I couldn’t stop panting as I stared at the bruises in my body and the pieces of metal pierced in my skin. My hand was bleeding and I felt some liquid running down my head. I was weak and had no strength.

The driver of the truck didn’t bother to help and I was stuck in the car bleeding profusely. I managed to bring out my phone and dialed Devin’s number. I couldn’t talk much so I only told him the location where I was in and concluded with “help” before my phone dropped from my hand and everything became blank.