The Alpha Can’t Sense His Mate

CALLA’S POV

Scarlett handed me a potion to drink while they watched me curiously.

Cole never left my side since I regained consciousness. I couldn’t drink it – not after what I heard. Who knew the extent to which they would go to stop me from regaining my memories?

Or what they have done for the past three years I have lived here. As I looked them in the eyes, I knew I could not trust them. Not anymore.

“Are you feeling pain anywhere?” Cole asked when I failed to drink my ‘medicine.’ I winced at his words.

“I think I need to use the bathroom,” I muttered, looking at them both. “Alone.”

They shared knowing looks and Cole got on his feet. “I will be back.” He said to Scar. “If there is any problem, do not hesitate to call me.”

Scar nodded and he walked out of the room, leaving me alone with her.

“Take the drink.” Her voice was soft and urging.

“I don’t feel like it,” I spoke with a straight face. “I feel alright. I just need some time to collect myself.”

“This is not about what you feel. Your body is weak and you need these supplements to boost your immune system.” Her voice hardened. “You need them.”

I nodded my head, tired of her relentless pursuits. “I’ll just have a quick shower, and take them later.” She didn’t budge.

Scarlett took up the potion and handed it to me – gesturing to take it.

Angry, I took the potion and threw it down my throat. “Can I have my rest now?”

“Calla..” She started but I cut her short.

“I need to be alone.” I snapped, standing impatiently, as I waited for her to leave.

“I’ll be outside if you need me.” She said when I didn’t budge, and walked out of the room, leaving me to my thoughts.

As soon as the door clicked shut, I rushed to the bathroom and purged myself of the poison I had ingested. Breathing heavily, I looked in the mirror and found my hair was longer than usual.

And for some weird reason, I loved it. There and then, I decided to let it grow long, knowing it would spite Cole who favoured my short hair. I was far too gone to care now. I looked in the mirror and made a vow to find myself.

To discover who I was and break out of this fallacy I’ve lived for the past three years – or die trying.

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Weeks passed and I felt lighter with my continued not digesting everything given to me. My thoughts were clearer and I had never been more self-aware.

With that discovery came a newfound wariness for Cole and Scarlett. I couldn’t ignore that they were more watchful of me these days, especially Cole.

Cole tried every possible means to get into my head and tweak it to his standard but there was no such luck. I refused to speak to anyone about my dreams and expertly carried myself. I felt like a new person.

I could feel another side of me slowly coming to the light. A freer side of me – so much that the name Calla didn’t do justice to. Despite my immense progress, there was still a lot to do.

There was still a lot of gaps to fill. I could feel like I had forgotten a huge part of me, and the more I discovered little things that felt normal and familiar to me, and changed my appearance, the more I felt there was even more to know about myself.

My dreams didn’t make it better. I could see things that felt real and gave me the impression I had once lived such a life. But there was no one to relate these things to, so I kept it sealed and carried on my day like normal.

Today was my first day back to training. I felt a lot better than normal and for that, I was grateful. It was about time I left my chambers and felt the wind in my hair anyway.

“Luna.” Scarlett’s voice brought me out of my reverie, and my face twinged at her choice of words.

“Calla.” I corrected her for the first time. Her eyes perked and I added with a smile. “We are close enough for you to address me by name.”

Scarlett shrugged. I could tell she had more to say but decided to hold on to it. I didn’t push further. “How do you feel?” She asked, and I shrugged.

“Awesome.” I stepped forward. “Ready when you are.”

Scarlett gauged me with her eyes and slightly shook her head. “Do you know how I joined this pack?” She asked out of the blue and my attention perked.

I shook my head. I knew she wasn’t an ordinary person, as she didn’t have a werewolf just like myself. I often wondered how she climbed the ranks and became the beta but never asked.

“I lost my memories twelve years ago.” She said and my eyes widened in shock. “I don’t know what happened, but I stumbled upon this pack with no idea who I was.” She continued, “I didn’t even realise I was in danger until the Alpha stepped in and stopped the guard wolves from killing me.”

“He asked who I was and when he realised I couldn’t remember my identity, he tried everything to find out who I was all to no avail. One day, I tried to ease his burden and thought, maybe if I remembered who I was, I could head out and be on my way back to wherever I came from. At some point, I was eager to meet myself. To introduce myself to Alpha Cole who was kind to me.” She said with a revering look on her face.

“That day, I saw something. And decided it was best I embraced my new self.” My eyes narrowed at her words.

“What did you see?” I asked before I could stop myself. “What did you see that made you make such a decision?”Content (C) Nôv/elDra/ma.Org.

“It doesn’t matter what I saw. The little I was able to see was so full of pain, I decided I was better off without my memories.” Her eyes found my own. “Take it from me, Calla. Sometimes, we forget because the memories were too painful, and we were better off without them.”

Her eyes communicated her message and I regarded Scarlett with a new perspective. Nevertheless, I didn’t let my guard down. “You never know if you don’t know,” I muttered and she heard me.

“Let’s get to work.” She said, taking her stance and we began training for the day.