82
A slap across the face
Lily
Still sitting on the couch, my brain kept going back to all the times we spent together, all the things I had and still could have achieved with Jarod. I could have sworn that this day would never happen. He kept looking at me like he was waiting for me to say something, all smiles. I wanted to wipe the smirk off his face. Must feel fantastic to betray your own.
“You know, I had so much faith in you. Even while we quarrelled, I felt it was just another pothole along the way. I never thought you’d be this petty and destroy our friendship with such an epic betrayal! I’m beyond disappointed Jarod!” I raised my voice at him and it almost broke. The smile on his face turned to a frown. Mission accomplished.
“How dare you sit down there and talk about a betrayal? You are the one that betrayed me. I did nothing but stayed loyal to you until I was fed up. ” I was so lost, what did he mean by that? How did I betray him? I did nothing wrong
“What’s that supposed to mean? How did I betray you?” My eyes widened. He started laughing
“How dumb could you possibly be?” He laughed again
“You’re so self-righteous and blind that you don’t see that you’ve just been playing into the devil’s court, dancing with a man that doesn’t care about you and doesn’t even see you for who you are ” He shook his head
“I never thought you’d fall for him you know, for a playboy like him that just wanted to use you but I’m sure his wealth blinded you so much that you couldn’t see the real deal in front of you all the while”Text property © Nôvel(D)ra/ma.Org.
Now wait a minute, ignoring all the insults because it’s nothing I’ve not heard from Jarod before, I do hope that the real deal in this statement isn’t him though, that’d be funny that he’ll think that I’ll ever think of him in that way.
He continued, “in case you didn’t realize, I was talking about myself” I so wanted to burst into laughter but I had to pull myself together
“You treated me like trash Lily, I did like you and I was always there when you needed me but like I said, blind to see the signs”
“But aren’t friends supposed to be there for each other whenever they’re needed?” I asked
“That’s not the point Lily, I’m just really disappointed that you chose him over me” he pointed at me
“Now, I’m gonna give back to you every ounce of hurt you made me feel and so much payback that you’ll wish we never met. It’s on Lily!” Okay, that got to me. I’m going to lose Jarod and there’s nothing I can do about it. Is this how it feels to lose a friend? If so, I don’t want to even have one to lose anymore. I was in shock.
“Come on Jarod, it can’t be that bad. We’re close friends, you want to throw all that away?” He said nothing
“Look, I always considered you family and families always look out for each other. I never thought feelings were involved. Also, I’m not with Cayden. Things have been going in a way I didn’t expect, even today we…”
“Save it, Lily. I don’t want to hear it. What is done is done, there’s nothing that can change my mind”
“Your stance is just petty Jarod, you’re just looking for a fight where there shouldn’t be..”
“Oh, I am? Did you just invalidate my feelings? So much for being a “caring” friend”
“Look who’s talking about caring, if you knew anything about care, you’d not betray me at the slightest chance all because our feelings weren’t mutual”
“Yea? If only you knew anything about care, you’d have asked me about how I felt or considered my thoughts about you being with Cayden. But you didn’t care anyway. You even went as far as travelling with him!”
“Snap out of it Jarod, you’re acting like a child” I snapped.
“You snap out of it, you’re acting like a rich man’s mistress!!” I gave him a very hard slap with the palm of my right hand across his face, and we both stared deeply into each other’s eyes. His fist tightened but I knew he’d do nothing, he had his principles, and beating up a woman wasn’t part of it. His fist released shortly after.
There was silence, streams of tears I’d been holding rode freely down my cheeks. I hope Jarod felt accomplished.
“Get out of my house” He looked at me with his hands pointed at the door.
“With pleasure, ass hat!” I stormed out of the house and sat under a tree nearby. There were lots of bushes around and it seemed like a good place to let all my feelings out.
“Fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuccckkkkkkkk!!!!!!!!!” I screamed so loud that all the birds and insects around dashed out of fear. I sat still and allowed the evening breeze to cool me down. The cool evening breeze whistled softly, blowing lightly through my hair. The sky was a deep, clear blue and the moonlight reflected on people’s windows. I could feel the stars smiling down at me; an angry me. After the stifling heat of the day, I felt relieved just for a second. But it wasn’t enough to make me feel better. I was still in tears. I didn’t deserve how Jarod made me feel, he was such a bitch. To think that I thought he might have been gay at some point; I mean, he didn’t seem to like anyone. It was alarming. Now, breaking up a friendship because I didn’t go for him? That’s some childish and stupid thing right there.
People were hiking this part of the woods, either for leisure or fitness sake. Can’t remember the last time I went out for a jog. I should try it someday and get some steam off of this body.