Chapter 140
Knight
I felt hurt with what Cassie did at breakfast today. In fact she had tried to diss me one way or the other since she arrived. I wanted to talk to her, I really wanted to resolve things. If only she knew how much I missed her.
Seeing that the men were hanging around even after breakfast, I seized the opportunity to be close to Cassie, even though it involved just staring at her from a distance. She was fucking gorgeous and had grown into a woman in just one year. Curves at the right places, the right amount of skin coating her features, she looked more matured than the teenage girl I had known. My feelings didn’t change either it only increased.
Seeing Angel and Thea leave, I felt relieved hoping that Caspian would take Camilo along with him and hopefully Cassie would be the last one clearing the place but I was disappointed when she took permission from Florentine to leave. She made the excuse that she wasn’t feeling too well but I knew that was a lie. She just couldn’t stand me in the same room with her.
Seeing her leave, I didn’t care if it looked suspicious that I went after her. I followed just immediately ignoring the curious stares that came at me.
“Oh please get a room you two!”
I saw her scold Angel and Thea. I chuckled finding it amusing. I wondered how she’d feel learning that her brother had finally fallen in love, especially with his step sister.
I could tell Thea felt embarrassed. Cassie shook her head in disappointment and made her way past them, I gave Angel a knowing look and smirked at Thea who avoided my gaze.
She wasn’t to blame. Angel, that fucker was too crazy about her.
“Get a room.” I muttered facing Angel. He glared at me but I didn’t give a fuck. I had another little Angel to get things right with.
“Are you following Cassie?” I froze in my spot. I was confused for a split second. The question seemed random. Why would he even think that? I guess it was the brother instinct.
He obviously wouldn’t approve of my feelings for his sister. What the fuck was I even doing?
“I’m surprised you’d even think that.” I said tilting my head to the side.
“My mistake.” He said and I walked ahead. Of course I was following Cassie and I had no intention of backing out.
I followed her through the hall way but after sometime I noticed her body movement. She slowed down and I knew she felt me behind her. She continued walking while I hastened my steps behind her then she stopped a second time, this time she turned around to face me.
“Why are you following me?” She asked looking pissed off.
I stood before her, my figure towering above her.
“We need to talk Cassie.”
“Really? About what exactly?” She said folding her arms across her chest which pushed her breast forward. I blinked away the thoughts that immediately flooded my head. As much as she looked pissed she still appeared nervous standing before me. I guess my charm and effect on her wasn’t completely gone. I also recalled the night I took her back to her hotel room. She did ogle at me and how I fucking enjoyed the look in her eyes.
I studied her for some seconds before speaking. “What’s your problem with me?” She wore a blank expression for some seconds before scoffing.
“Is this what you came after me to ask?” She was rude but I knew she was a spoilt little brat so it was nothing new. Regardless, I loved her like that.
“You’ll need to start talking or someonelse could be asking you this same question. If you have a problem with me why not spill it.” I said almost yelling. I was getting frustrated at her snubish attitude but I guess I deserved it.NôvelDrama.Org exclusive content.
She maintained her pissed off experession. She fucking hated me.
“Are you going to stand there and pretend you have no idea?” She sounded serious and deeply hurt. Her eyes were watering but I could tell she was trying so hard to hold back her tears.
“I don’t.” I lied. I wanted her to say it, yell at me if possible. She looked disappointed and only nodded to my answer.
“Then I shall take my leave.” She said and made to leave but I grabbed her arm and pulled her back. She almost crashed her body against mine but was quick to put a bridge between us using her hand. I stiffened feeling her hand on my chest.
That single touch felt so fucking good. I wanted to wrap my arms around her, hug her to myself and tell how sorry I was.
I watched as she remained fixed on my chest, she soon blinked startling away from me. She must have been enchanted once more.
“What the fuck is wrong with you?” She yelled and I squinted my eyes at her outrage. I scoffed in disbelieve, wasn’t she just lost in admiration?
“I need answers Cassie.”
“Why not travel back in time and find the answers yourself.” She said and stormed out.
I sighed feeling drained already. Could I ever earn her forgiveness? I literally broke her heart the last time she was here.
I followed after her and she hastened her steps seeing I was coming after her. She got to her door and tried to shut me out of it but I was quick to stop her from doing so.
I pushed my way through her door despite knowing the guards would be alert.
“Get out!”
“Cassie ….”
“I said get out!” She yelled shaking slightly from anger. A knock soon came at the door and I knew I needed to answer it.
“Try not to make a fuss, I’m going to open the door now and answer the guards, except you want Angel to have my head for assumingly trying to harrass you.” She looked away from me but that was my answer, she wouldn’t want such to happen either. I opened the door to see the guard looking concerned.
“Boss….” He greeted bowing slightly.
“Mm… hmm?”
“I just wanted to know if everything was fine in there.” He said glancing behind me. I had intentionally opened the door enough for him to see that Cassie was unharmed.
“It is.”
“Pardon me then.”
I closed the door and turned towards Cassie.
“Do you want to talk now or should I get lost?”
She remained silent and only wiped a tear off her eyes.
“Cassie….” I called gently moving close to her, I could feel her tense with my proximity. I was glad I still had that effect on her. I let my finger caress her cheek and her sighed sensously at the feeling. “Talk to me please.” She grabbed my hand weaving her fingers in mine, I was shocked at the the act then she went ahead to feel our hands on her cheek closing her eyes at the contact. Even though she looked like a fucking temptress, I was worried with the act yet I couldn’t find the strength to resist.
She began trailing my hand to her lips and my body vibrated in desire. I let her guide my thumb to feel her lips and fuck! she looked so damn sexy. She guided me down her neck to her chest and damn it! My heart was racing so fast. What the fuck was she doing and what in hell was I letting her do? She suddenly opened her eyes giving me a look that I tried to understand in a split second but then she quickly pressed my hand against her breast and my eyes widened in shock.
I quickly withdrew my hands from her and looked away trying to wrap my head around what just happened. I’d be lying if I said feeling her breast didn’t just arouse me and spark some forbidden desires in me.
I tried to steady my breath and keep myself under control. She wasn’t someone I could just fuck because I felt horny.
“What the fuck was that?” I scolded once I felt calm. She looked hurt by my question but I was even more shocked by her action.
“Am I not woman enough for you now?” She said painfully as tears welled up her eyes.
“Cassie you just tried to seduce me now.”
“… And you liked it for some seconds before obviously realizing that it was the same teenage girl you made feel so inferior a year back all because she confessed her feelings to you!” A tear streamed down her eyes and I felt a sting in my chest. I was speechless.
“Tell me, am I not woman enough for you now? Don’t I have the curves, the size, are my looks still not impressive for you to see me as a woman?”
I couldn’t find the words to respond. I really did some damage there if she ever thought her looks weren’t impressive enough. She was Angel’s fucking sister! Beauty was a gift and a curse in their family. How could she even breath the thought that she looked any less?
“Knight….” Her voice came out cracky. “Do I not look pretty to you?”
“Cassie stop….”
“No! You wanted answers and here you have it. I’ve hated you for a year and tried to push you out of my heart and mind. All I did wrong was fall in love with my brother’s friend at 17. I only found the courage to tell you when I turned 18 because then I believed you’d see me as an adult but what did you do?”
Fuck me! I was done for. Cassie totally despised me, I didn’t need anyone to tell me so because her expression could kill if that were possible.
I knew exactly what I did and I wasn’t sure I wanted to be reminded.
“I admit I didn’t handle things maturedly then.”
” No you didn’t. You told me I needed to see myself in the mirror that I was just a kid. That you’d never fall for a spoilt brat like me and if I thought I could have anyone just because I was the Don’s daughter then I was in for a big disappointment. Remember knight?” She said breaking out in tears.
I ran my fingers across my hair feeling the pressure of her words getting worse.
“You don’t do virgins.” I looked at her and bit my lips remembering it all too well. “You go for experienced women. ‘Women not kids’ then you laughed. You told me I’d get some boys at college If I wanted to have sex so badly and then you brought back a whore the next day shoving it to my face every single day she stayed over. You fucked her every night while I bleed my heart out and not even a single apology till date for the way you treated a supposed teenager.”
She was right she was so fucking right! If I could change what I did I would but I had my reasons. I believed we would never work seeing she was Angel’s sister but now that Angel had broken a code by being with his step sister why should I deny myself the chance to be with Cassie?
I had treated her that way hoping she’d forget about me but I couldn’t even forget about her. I knew I was being selfish but I hoped that behind all those hate there was still love left for me in her heart.
“Cassie… I’m sorry.”
“You’re sorry? Does it remove the fact that you made me depressed for an entire year, does it take away the fact that you made me feel worthless and inferior?”
“I’m sorry.”
“Don’t fucking say you’re sorry!” She cried out and I moved closer to her hoping to console her but she put a hand forward stopping me. “So I’m I woman enough for you now? Because a while ago I saw you bulging from your pants. Can you do me now?”
I gulped hard at her words. What was she implying?
“Did you lose it just so you could find out if I’d still do you?” I was pissed off just thinking about it. That she lost her virginity to someonelse just so she could try me again. I hated it even more that someonelse touched her and felt these sparks that I felt just now. She remained silent and just stared at me and I seized the opportunity to get closer.
“Cassie answer me! Did you give yourself away just because of it?”
“What do you care? It’s my body not yours. I have nothing to say to you so just leave!”
She said and began moving towards her bed but I followed immediately turning her to face me. I felt angry at the thought that she enjoyed sex with someone else. This was damn stupid and selfish of me but right now I was letting my emotions take control.
“Who was it?” My voice startled her but she put up a hard front.
“It’s none of your business you fuck whores everyday.”
“I said who was it!”
“Let me go!” She yelled trying to pull herself away from me but my grip was hard on her. “I said get your hands off me!” She suceeded in pulling away and I felt a sting in my cheeks the next second. She had just landed a slap across my face.
I was shocked having not expected that but I guess I crossed the line way too much. I let out a deep sigh and glared at her. She looked scared but stood her ground.
I guess it was better losing it to someone else than to me. Should in case we never worked out she wouldn’t have any regrets whenever she saw me.
“I hope you enjoyed it.” I said even though it hurt me to bits to say it.
“I did… More than I expected.” She said not an ounce of regret in her voice. I felt a pang of pain hearing her say it but there was nothing I could do so I turned away completely broken at heart.
I may have lost her while thinking I still had her and it was all my fault.