Fifty Shades of Grey (book 1+ 2)

Chapter 61

"You okay?" he asks tenderly as his thumb lightly caresses my bottom lip.

"Yes." I reply, though in all honesty I'm just not sure. I feel a paradigm shift. I know that if I do this thing

with him, I will get hurt. He's not capable, interested, or willing to offer me any more... and I want more.

Much more. The surge of jealousy I felt only moments ago tells me that I have deeper feelings for him

than I have admitted to myself.

"Wednesday," he confirms, and he leans forward and kisses me softly. Something changes while he's

kissing me, his lips grow more urgent against mine, his hand moves up from my chin and he's holding

the side of my head, his other hand on the other side. His breathing accelerates. He deepens the kiss,

leaning into me. I put my hands on his arms.

I want to run them through his hair, but I resist, knowing that he won't like it. He leans his forehead

against mine, his eyes closed, his voice strained.

"Anastasia," he whispers. "What are you doing to me?"

"I could say the same to you," I whisper back.

Taking a deep breath, he kisses my forehead and leaves. He strolls purposefully down the path

towards his car as he runs his hand through his hair. Glancing up as he opens his car door, he smiles

his breathtaking smile. My answering smile is weak, completely dazzled by him, and I'm reminded once

more of Icarus soaring too close to the Sun. I close the front door as he climbs into his sporty car. I

have an overwhelming urge to cry, a sad and lonely melancholy grips and tightens round my heart.

Dashing back to my bedroom, I close the door and lean against it trying to rationalize my feelings. I

can't. Sliding to the floor, I put my head in my hands as my tears begin to flow. Exclusive © material by Nô(/v)elDrama.Org.

Kate knocks gently.

"Ana?" she whispers. I open the door. She takes one look at me and throws her arms around me.

"What's wrongWhat did that creepy good-looking bastard do?"

"Oh Kate, nothing I didn't want him to."

She pulls me to my bed and we sit.

"You have dreadful sex hair."

In spite of my poignant sadness, I laugh.

"It was good sex, not dreadful at all."

Kate smiles.

"That's better. Why are you cryingYou never cry." She retrieves my brush from the side table, and

sitting behind me, very slowly starts brushing out the knots.

"I just don't think our relationship is going to go anywhere." I stare down at my fingers.

"I thought you said you were going to see him on Wednesday?"

"I am, that was our original plan."

"So, why did he turn up here today?"

"I sent him an email."

"Asking him to drop by?"

"No, saying I didn't want to see him anymore."

"And he turns upAna, that's genius."

"Actually it was a joke."

"Oh. Now I'm really confused."

Patiently, I explain the essence of my email without giving anything away.

"So you thought he'd reply by email."

"Yes."

"But instead he turns up here."

"Yes."

"I'd say he's completely smitten with you."

I frown. Christian, smitten with meHardly. He's just looking for a new toy - a convenient new toy that he

can bed and do unspeakable things to. My heart tightens painfully.

This is the reality.

"He came here to f**k me, that's all."

"Who said romance was dead?" she whispers horrified. I've shocked Kate. I didn't think that was

possible. I shrug apologetically.

"He uses sex as a weapon."

"Fuck you into submission?" She shakes her head disapprovingly. I blink rapidly at her, and I can feel

the blush as it spreads across my face. Oh... spot on, Katherine Kavanagh, Pulitzer Prize-winning

journalist.

"Ana, I don't understand, you just let him make love to you?"

"No, Kate, we don't make love - we f**k - Christian's terminology. He doesn't do the love thing."

"I knew there was something weird about him. He has commitment issues."

I nod, as if in agreement. Inwardly, I pine. Oh Kate... I wish I could tell you everything, everything about

this strange, sad, kinky guy, and you could tell me to forget about him. Stop me from being a fool.

"I guess it's all a little overwhelming," I murmur. That's the understatement of the year. Because I don't

want to talk about Christian any more, I ask her about Elliot. Katherine's whole demeanor changes at

the mere mention of his name, she lights up from within, beaming at me.

"He's coming over early Saturday to help load up." She hugs the hairbrush, boy has she got it bad, and

I feel a familiar faint stab of envy. Kate has found herself a normal man, and she looks so happy.

I turn and hug her.

"Oh, I meant to say. Your dad called while you were... err, occupied. Apparently Bob has sustained

some injury, so your mom and he can't make graduation. But your dad will be here Thursday. He wants

you to call."

"Oh... my mom never called me. Is Bob okay?"

"Yes. Call her in the morning. It's late now."

"Thanks, Kate. I'm okay now. I'll call Ray in the morning too. I think I'll just turn in." She smiles, but her

eyes crinkle at the corners with concern.

After she's gone, I sit and read the contract again, making more notes as I go. When I've finished, I fire

up the laptop, ready to respond.

There's an email from Christian in my inbox.

From: Christian Grey

Subject: This evening

Date: May 23 2011 23:16

To: Anastasia Steele

Miss Steele

I look forward to receiving your notes on the contract.

Until then, sleep well baby.

Christian Grey

CEO, Grey Enterprises Holdings Inc.

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