Chapter NINETY: SHE SHOULD LEAVE
Minutes after I walked out of the bathroom, a knock came from the door.
“Who is it?” I asked as I wiped water off my face.
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My heart ached.
I opened the door and he walked in.
“What do you want?” I asked.
“I’m sorry for what happened earlier. It shouldn’t have happened. It is obvious we can’t keep our hands away from each other.”
“Why are you trying to fight it?”
“Because it’s not right,” He said.
“What do you mean by that?”
“Katherine will never want this. I feel so guilty. It feels right and at the same time, it doesn’t. I hope you understand.”
“Hold on,” I scoffed, “you make love to me and then you resent me because of your dead mate?”
“She isn’t dead to me.”
“She is dead. Long dead and gone. And you can’t make me look like her. We have had moments. Just you and I. Katherine isn’t here anymore. Why can’t you just see that?”
“You don’t know what you are saying. So stop saying what you have no idea about.”
“Do you even want me at all? Do you ever see me? Or you will always see her? Do I make you feel a certain way? Kieran, I have felt things with you that I haven’t felt with anyone before. Why are you doing this? Why do you say things like this to me? I thought you liked me for me. I guess I was wrong,” tears filled my eyes. I heard the quiver in my voice. “Look at me Kieran when I talk to you!” I yelled tearful. I moved close to him.
“No,” He pulled away from me, “with you here, this guilt will continue to grow.”
“What guilt? Katherine isn’t here anymore. Wherever she is, she would want you to be happy. She would want you to move on with your life.”
“No, she won’t, you don’t know that. Don’t talk about her like you know her. I have come to the decision that you should leave the palace. I will arrange with a good place for you downtown,” his voice quivered.
“Are you kicking me out?”
“You leave by night fall,” he said and walked out shutting me off.
Could he be serious? I doubted that but I haven’t seen him that way before. If anything, he really meant it.
I didn’t leave the room After what had happened I just laid on my back staring at the top as I awaited night fall. I hadn’t packed up anything. I didn’t know what was the right thing to pick up. Everything belonged there after all, I had not brought in anything with me when I first came. I knew my life would change. Maybe not seeing Kieran again would be a much better option.
The previous week had been a bit different. It was like he had changed like he actually cared about the real me. I still can’t believe that I fell for that. Somehow this decision was the best for the both of us. I couldn’t keep up with the life. Living like I was someone else that I didn’t want to be was much worse than it sounded. At least, he didn’t moan her name. I was sure of that.
I carried a few wears from the closet and dumped it on the bed. My suitcase laid on the bed. I had changed my mind about leaving without anything. A sharp knock on the door caused me to pause. I froze, my heart hammered a bit. Kieran. It had to be Kieran. I wasn’t sure if I wanted to see him just yet. Maybe he had come to lead me away. But I wasn’t done packing just yet. And it wasn’t completely nightfall. Maybe he couldn’t just wait to get rid of me.
“Come in,” I called out, my voice a bit tight.
The door creaked open, and Kieran walked in. But something was different about him. His face was a bit different. He didn’t have the smiles or even the bold look. I ignored it. And continued with my clothes.
“Hey,” I said, forcing a smile. “Just packing up.”
Kieran didn’t return the smile. I didn’t expect that he would. Instead, he scanned the room, his gaze lingered a bit on the open suitcase.
“Clara,” he began, his voice was l low, “we need to talk.”
I scoffed, “talk about what? See, I get it. You want me gone. That’s fine, I’ll leave. But just give me a little more time to wrap it all up and I’ll be out of your nose.”
He closed the door softly as he ushered himself in completely.
“Ryan,” he said, his voice barely a whisper.
I paused as I heard the name. “What about him?” I forced out, composing.
“He’s here,” Kieran said.
A sharp cold clawed it way up my throat.
Couldn’t help as my mind raced. I swallowed. Maybe he was here for anything else. I hoped.
“What does he want?”
“What else?” Kieran’s jaw tightened. “You can’t leave. Not now.”
I stared at him, “What do you mean I can’t leave? You wanted me gone.”
“Did you not hear me? Ryan is here.”
“But that didn’t matter to you when you sent me out did it? I’m going to fix this and then I’m going to leave.”
“It’s the blood moon tonight Clara,” Kieran said, his voice was gentle but firm. “You know what happens then. Just stay in. Don’t leave tonight. I’ll sort Ryan out.”
“Then I’m coming with you.”
He scoffed, “it seems you didn’t hear me right. Do you want to get yourself killed? Who knows what Ryan has planned this time? And you just want to go out there and make it easier for him.”
“And that’s just it? I keep hiding and let you do everything? He’ll find me eventually.”
“He won’t, You’ll be safe here. I won’t let him get to you,” Kieran said with a much steady voice.
“Safe? Is that what you call this? Being locked away like a caged bird while I should be out there ending this shit once and for all.”
Kieran flinched, “I’m sorry but this is for your own good.”
“What?”
Before I could realize what he meant by those words, he took out the key from the keyhole and shut the door as he walked outside. I heard the last click as he locked me in. I was too late.
“Kieran, don’t you dare do this to me.”
I banged the door shouting, “I’m not a child to be coddled and protected every damn time. Let me do this.”
“Not against Ryan,” Kieran said from outside, ” Who knows, he could be stronger during the blood moon. We don’t know that but I will be a lot focused knowing that you are safe in here.”
“There has to be something else we can do. Please just open the door,” I pleaded. But I didn’t hear Kieran’s voice again. He left.
I paced around as my mind drifted into different scenarios. Kieran was right, Ryan would not have come without a plan. He would do anything to harm me. I knew this. But I couldn’t just let him handle it alone. What if he got hurt? I would not forgive myself for taking the fall. He was powerful but Ryan was desperate. There was always an edge to his desperation that I didn’t like.
I needed to get out. Being locked up in a room with my own thought would not help matters.
“I should end this. Tonight,” I muttered.